Holiday is over

For the past 9 days, I don’t have to think about work! I guess I had gained 3 kgs in 9 days! Don’t worry, once I start work I can get rid of the extra kgs easily. It was the longest holidays I ever had since I started work. Besides from eating, sleeping, watching tv and outing with friends, it was also a moment to spend some quality time with family.

Chinese New Year is all about food, drink, friends, relatives and mum’s cooking. Meeting and catching up with friend was another wonderful event. I can’t recognize some of them, can’t blame me because I didn’t see them for almost 12 years or more. :D

Years passed, we changed and had chosen the path that we want. Everyone is busy with their own life and it was great to spend some time together with those people that was once passed by my life when I was young.

A friend told me that she would like to try her luck in Singapore, I truly understand her wish. She told me it’s time to try something new while she is young and has energy to do it. I really support her. It has been almost 2 years of working and yet she cant see herself moving anywhere. I have the same thinking too but I have made my decision to hang on as tight as I could but I believe there will be a time when I should let go.

CNY is finally over for me, I am in Penang now and getting ready to the battlefield tomorrow.

Work hard and smart!

Tomorrow? How will it be?

Start work at 6 am really not fun at all.. I usually end up working from 6 am to 6 pm. Life has been a roller coaster, dividing time and attention between work and solving some personal issues really exhausting. Every problem must have a solution, I guess my personal problem have to be solved tomorrow. The earlier I solve it, the better it will be. I already have a plan for myself, finally a plan..

Salad of the day

Although the color looks dull but quite delicious. :D

Ingredients:
Cabbage
Onion
Hard boiled egg
Luncheon Meat
Sausages
Potato

Sauce:
Thousand Island
Mayonnaise
Soya Sauce
Black Pepper
Chili Sauce

New Year? New Resolution?

2005 was forever gone! I forgot since when making new resolution has become my annual practice but it somehow will at least give some new hope.

I lost my 2005 resolution when my hard disk crashed. Anyway, I do remember some of the important things in the list.

It’s time to make new year resolution..

New year? New me? New job? New life? ..

Or shall I stop making new year resolution since I only managed achieved 40% out of the list?

Happy New Year Everyone…

Wish that everything will be fine!

The Sushi of Joy

This is my 1st time making sushi, no idea how to make it but just tried to make something with the hope it can inspire me. However, it didnt manage to inspire! Quite tedious and time consuming but the result i got was a good beginning :D

When ok is not good enough..

Every morning, no matter how bad is the situation at work I will try my very best to convince myself that "nothing is easy in life, I hv to be strong". To make sure that everyday is a brand new day, I will have my warmest smile to welcome the day but the smile wont last long. All critical issues and tasks pile up in my responsibilities. There are times I wish I am a superwoman who can handle all the requests and tasks all at once superbly. I am just a small living creature struggling to survive in a large company.

Looking at those mistakes i have done and those things that should have handle it differently. I do regret on things that I did but there are still a lot of things that are out of my control.

I dont know how long I can hang on with the current situation, a very challenging situation but I guess I will still stick to here. I had make myself here hence I wont leave until I reach my goal. It is not about how much effort I put, how many meals I skipped, how much caffeine I took to stay alive in the office or how much weekends I spent in the office.. It is all about the result and it is my responsibilities to improve the current situation. By hook or by crook, everything has to be excellent!

My Raya holiday

Time flies. It was the 1st time I drove back to Ipoh. Finally, my car was on the road to its origin place since the day she left Ipoh. :D. The feeling was so great. In Ipoh, everyone drives slowly where as in Penang, everyone is always in hurry and another biggest difference is bikers in Penang are the “King of the road”. hehe ..

I never had such a long break without purpose.. it was really fun.. I shopped on the 1st day, catch up with friends on the 2nd, then baked pineapple rolls on the 3rd. Time seemed too short.. I didnt achieve much on these few days ... there are still a lot things that i planned but didnt manage to do ..

Now I am back to Penang, my dearest 2nd home. Exhausted. Tomorrow is Sunday.. I guess most likely I will need to spend my Sunday in the office.

My Creation

Raw Pineapple Rolls

The Result

~Wonderful~

The story of the weekend begins with me waiting for the arrival of special guests. I was relieved to see them arrive safely after the bus broke down. It was a wonderful weekend. This time gathering brings back those good old days memories. I really don’t know how to express it in words but it just a great feeling. Those candid pictures seems so cheerful than those stagnant n boring pictures.. I watched the recorded video, the incident seems so fresh but it is already the past. It is just so sweet and wonderful. This gathering left us physically exhausted due to lack of sleep but it is worth it to have another stamp of great footprint in our life journey.

Everyone was having fun with my guitars :D

Everything seemed so rush that day. I am so glad that they traveled to Penang to meet me because I can’t make it back to Ipoh. Well, I hate farewell moment but this is reality that everyone has to face. Good thing comes and goes.

Their comment on me, I had changed and I do admit that I did change from the past 4 years. Life experiences and environment have great impact in my life. :D

I met up a friend from KL.. a pleasant chit chat moment.

Good time passed so fast, now it is back to reality. Monday will be another battle field day again.

This was indeed a splendid weekend.

Take 2

I wonder why we always be think we are not good enough..…After certain thing happened, I wish I can turn back time and do it a better way. Perhaps, we are just normal human who make mistake. Or it is because I care too much on how people think about me.

Have been busy lately, I am glad that I have some peace to sit in front of my pc and to surf and enjoy the carefree moment. Hope to have forever Saturday. Monday, will be a rat race again.

Today, nothing much in the schedule, just have to drop by at few banks to settle credit card payment and education loan. Then, perhaps buy something for lunch or dinner, depends what time I get out to settle this.

Practise guitar is a must thing. I chose it and I have to love it :)

Palabra del Día

Learn Spanish with don Quijote

Singapore

I have been thinking and thinking this for a long very time ago. There are times when I feel like just want to go there and leave Malaysia. Words are to say, but when come to action will not be that easy anymore.

I asked myself “Does earning a little bit more but I might live in a more depressed condition worth going to Singapore?”


Now I am in Penang, there are times when I feel very very down, I just have to pack my bag and head back to ipoh and forget about doubts and problems for weekends. At least for the few days, I don’t have to think about my job, future, goals.. just sit back and enjoy the moment spent with parents.

And if I move to Singapore, then going back will not be that easy. Then where should I go? Where? Lock myself in my room and cry my heart out?

I will not move to anywhere unless I have a very sure feeling that the new environment will promise happiness to my life.

However, I might move to Singapore when suddenly I want to gamble my happiness. As people say the more you risk take, the more you will get in return.

Frankly speaking, I don’t have the courage to gamble with whatever I have now. What I have now don’t really fulfill what I am chasing for and still a very far away from here. But if I put my foot into Singapore I might lose everything that I have now. Everything..

Called me coward, stupid or whatever… those little happiness might turn into ashes with just my one step….then I will lost everything….

20 things to do in ur 20s

Read an interesting magazine’s article that I would like to share.

1) Be ur own stylish
§ Complete ur kit with a few good handbags, earrings and shoes and a stand out accessories.
(I hv few handbags, shoes but no earrings coz I don’t hv earring holes. Wonder what kind of stand out accessories that I hv..hehe)

2) Globetrot
§ Must travel to at least 3 or 4 countries foreign land just to c what life is like on the other side of Greenwich.
(I qualify 4 this one: I had visited to London, Brazil and Vietnam, wanted to travel more but traveling require $$)

3) Know ur accessories
§ By ur 20s, there r several things u should know about b4 buying a jewelry. 1st, the 4 Cs (cut, clarity, colour and carat). Next, gemstone (birthstone, anniversaries, shapes)
(Well, this is an expensive investment :P)

4) Narrow ur chum list
§ The ‘you jump, I jump’ brand of friendship wont cut it anymore from 20 onwards. As other priorities precedence in ur life, the less important friendships u hv will start to drop 1 by 1.
(I can c this is happening..)

5) Have plan B
§ U can be doing really well now, but tomorrow might not be the same anymore. Think for plan B now. Hone a skill you can trade in the event your spanking new start-up closes shop in the economic crisis.
(hmm.. I should think about my plan B now, I hv to spend more time in guitar. If economy turn down, then I can play guitar along the street in Batu Ferringhi .. hehe.. just kidding)

6) No more pity dates
§ Tell them that u r not interested gently. :P

7) Save
§ Besides ur EPF savings, you should hv a secondary retirement plan, either in the form of short term(fixed deposit) or long term(property).
(Investment is good, perhaps it is time for me to really think about this)

8) No more bitchiness
§ No bitchiness. Resolve differences by smiling and keeping an open mind – by now u should be old enough to realize that you don’t know anything.
(Never act impulsively. Try to put a smile if possible or let’s put it the other way have to smile in the appropriate situation)

9) Be man independent
§ Learn minor plumbing, hammering and nailing.
(shouldn’t be a problem 4 me)

10) Remember names
§ (I think I am disqualify this.. hehe)

11) Cook
§ No, not instant noodles.
(I can cook simple food if I want to)

12) Hv favorite wine
§ (I don’t really bother what kind of wine I drink :P)

13) Lose body art
§ (I don’t hv any, so no worries)

14) Care 4 your nails
§ Nails speak volumes about ur personal grooming (Will try my best to keep it sexy, but sometimes it’s just too difficult when I play guitar. This is the price :P )

15) Know ur music
§ (Sad to say I don’t hv any favorite type of music, I just listen to those songs that make my feel good )

16) Keep current
§ (trying my best to keep to current, sometimes just too lazy to keep myself updated)

17) Know ur government

18) Wear high heels
§ Hv at least 3 pairs of 2-inch heels
(Well, I hv only 2 pairs, do i need to add one more pair? :))

Broadband down

No connection to the internet makes my life miserable. I just don’t know how to describe the feeling. I think I need a change in life. I have a number of things that can get myself occupy but yet I can’t stop that sad feeling drowning me. Life is like no motivation to continue at all.

Opportunity never knocks your door twice

I have been with this company since I graduated. Patience is the one of the reason that I am still here. I waited and waited from nothing to something, the day has finally arrive that I am able to involve in a big project. It is like sunshine after days of raining.

Another opportunity is knocking at my door, I plan to reject it because taking this one means I have to give up the current project that I am handling. This is indeed a good opportunity, they offer me a permanent position but not doing the same thing. I can do .NET.. the language that I fond in some time ago with this new position.

I just feel a little wasted if I let go this permanent position where I can enjoy the company’s benefits. I am certainly clear that if I miss this one, I might to wait for a long time to get a 2nd one.

Going to make the decision soon or actually I already had it in my mind but just haven’t officially sent the confirmation out.