How I wish..

Sometimes, how I wish I can go back time, life is much simpler when you are just a kid. Everything was wonderful then. No worries at all. Hectic life is drowning me. This is life, whenever I feel stress out I will remind myself, you are lucky and should be grateful, look at those graduates out there, many are unemployed. In this critical moment, I still have a job even though life is boring. Setting that as a reminder will only heal the sadness for a while, it will come back again soon. How long do I have to set that as a reminder? Come on, wake up, where is the strength? Where is the fire? Where is the courage?

Btw, I am going back to my hometown this weekend to get my passport, my credit cards, my education loan… there are so many things which need my attention. It has been some time I didn’t go back due to the commitment on my friend’s project, after going through so many hurdles in this project and many my more yet to come, I begin to question myself. Am I doing the right thing, helping him and losing my carefree life…and sometimes, it is obviously affecting my work and personal life. Initially, he said the project will end on 20 March, now it is already 7 April.

I need a vacation. Will be going to Vietnam on May. Hope it will heal the depression inside me and bring back the strength…I want to roar like a tiger again!

When will it happen again?

Since tsunami hit Penang once, ppl become more alert with it. I was busy doing some coding at 12.10 am, and suddenly I felt the tremor but I just ignored it till my friend shouted “Wei, earthquake, get out!” then only I grabbed my bag and ran out of the building. Then, when everything back to normal, everyone was not in the mood to do any coding, so I went home. When I reached home, a lot ppl gathered and scattered everywhere at the ground floor, some of them looked groggy and were walking around holding some belongings. While some of them started their car’s engine, I guessed they were preparing to leave if earthquake hit.

I saw my housemates, after a few minutes, we climbed up the stairs to 9th floor. This is one of the disadvantages of staying at high building. :`( I feel so insecure staying so high. Before I slept, i put all the important documents in a bag in case of emergency that i need to run for my life.

Is Penang that bad?

This is my 4th year here in Penang. I studied here and is working in Penang currently. Seeing friends leaving Penang one by one makes me wonder and i keep asking myself with the same old question? Do i belong to Penang? Till today, i still dont have the answer. Just give me time and i will be fine but how long i need? 1 day? 1 month or 1 year. I certainly need a change. When? Soon? Time to change! NOW... not happy, not contented, y still want to stay the same?

Where is my freedom?

Been a hectic life since the day i committed myself in the part time project. I know I will have to sacrifice most of my preciuos personal time. But what can I do, friend in need of help and i dont know Java but he still wish that i can support him. At last, I agreed. Too many hurdles to go through in this project, ppl coming in n out making thing difficult. Leave whenever they wish with no commitment or feeling guilty at all. Yesterday, finally meeting the big boss behind the project. He is trying to get commitment from everyone of us. His 1st question to me "Can u commit urself to this project?" I said in a stern and steady voice: "I am helping my friend and i will only committed to my friend! " I believe that i am a little angry because i hate being treaten .. n he is trying to treaten me. N believe it or not my sentence gain admiration from others even my friend feel touch by my words. They never expect me to say something to the boss. hhehhee
I have been doing badly in my guitar. Not progressing well due to lack of practice. I cant give up i must rebuild my passion in it!!!

Viva guitarra!

Finally, decision has been made. I am not joining the Java project. I know I can learn a lot if I go for it. It is certainly a good opportunity but seriously I am just too busy to do it. I have guitar class where I really need to practise a lot. Yesterday, I played horrible still stuck at the same page for almost one month. My guitar teacher asked “So, did u practice it at home?” I did but I just don’t practise enough. I better concentrate on 1st thing 1st rather than jumping into any thing yet. That Java project is quite attractive. I can get around RM 1000 for working on this project which will only take 1.5 month. I am sure that if I take then I will lose all my personal time. Viva guitarra!

Part time outsource project

My friend requested me to help him in a part time project. This task requires Java skill and I'm not sure whether I can survive with the skill that I have. Moreover, I have to sharpen my guitar skill which require a lot of practice and time. Time constraints... Undecided! Java vs Guitar. Wish I can hv more time.

Listen and Sing Along

A cool website where u can listen and sing along but all these songs are in Japanese http://www.karaokebox.org

Chinese New Year

Chinese New Year is almost over, I am back to work. That was the longest holiday I had since the last holiday I had for my Brazil trip. There are 2 things that I missed when I was in Ipoh:-
1) Guitar
2) Car

New Year@No late nites

My car park lot rental agreement ended on the 1st January 2005, so no more late nights.. or else i will have to somewhere really far outside my apartment.. Not cool and fun at all to park so far...

Finding myself on the new year eve

Friday, December 31, 2004


Tsunami hit, change ppl's life even though it dont really impact on me but when I see many ppl left homeless, i feel sad. They said there might be another one but dont know when.. life is so fragile. One tsunami ... 100,000 life gone. I don’t want to go anywhere this new year eve. No celebration. I just want to stay at home and think what had I been doing for the past 23 years. I don’t really jot down my resolution, previously I just used to study and my only worry is my academic result. Nothing else seems to be more important than this one. But, now I am working. My 1st year as a working adult celebrating new year. Therefore, I strongly believe that this time I really need some time to think.. what I want in my life?? If I still couldn’t find what I want … I will be like someone without directions, goal ..

Everything seems so fresh like yesterday, but reality is that were the past. ..Hope that I can come out with a list of new year resolution that I can make it a reality.

Funny Day

Ok. Yesterday was bad not single thing goes in place but today everything goes really well today. Server was down, reporting tool not functioning, missing data… seems bad rite, but every single thing is solved! J Then, everyone felt great and gathered to get ready for lunch, I went to pick up some colleagues from other department… one of my colleagues, CY went to the rest room. The rest just scattered everywhere ..and caused some confusion on how many cars, who should sit on who’s car. Finally, 9 ppl in 3 cars went in a separate way and decided to meet at the restaurant … when 3 cars finally settled then only we realized that we left out the lady in the restroom, CY. One of colleagues said she saw CY waving at us but she thought that CY was just trying to say good bye to us but the real thing was she saw trying to stop us… hahaha .. I didn’t see it!
CY didn’t call us because she doesn’t has a hand phone as she believe that she can survive without a hand phone. CY ended eating bread at the office. Even though, I didn’t see her waving but it was funny when all of us thought about it. How can we be so careless that can left out a person! ..

In the evening, I had X-mas party with my manager. My manager gave us chocolate bar as X Mas gift. The cakes were really delicious ;P

X mas is just around the corner, the whole IT department in my company will be having a X Mas party at Pearl Island Country Club.. better be fun …if not wasted all my efforts!
1) Changed my guitar class as it fall on the same day.
2) Broke Su ling’s promise to go out with her because I had to get a X mas gift for the party.
3) Spent hours to look for a suitable gift that.

Saturday on the run!

Had a busy Saturday yesterday, early in the morning went for guitar class. Followed by PC Fair at Penang International Sport Arena (PISA), Penang. I didn’t spend much money at PC Fair, just bought a headphone and black ink cartridge. Don’t want to spend too much on things which is not in my list. Telekom is having broadband connection promotion at PC Fair. My housemates and I might be sharing to subscribe broadband. Currently, I am using dial up connection and of course if I subscribe broadband then it will be great but I have to pay more for the connection. Right after that, my friend and I went to a nearby shopping complex because my friend wanted to buy a cell phone and she managed to buy Nokia 6610i for MYR750. I also wanted to get a new cell phone long time ago but just don’t know to get which model. There are so many models out there!
At night went to Penang Jazz Festival.

Anyone wants GMAIL??

I have 5 gmail invitations. Anyone interested? If yes, pls place ur email as a comment in this post. ;)

Farewell

My close friend will be leaving soon. I ‘m gonna miss her. No one is there to be my guinea pig to try my soup anymore. Friend comes and goes, that is part of life. A friendship cannot be built overnight, it takes times. Sad but no matter what, just have to move on. This is life. People say life is a game but I don’t think so, in game you can always pause the game and take a rest but life .. we just can’t stop whenever we want. Today is the last day that I spend my time with my friend, she is leaving tomorrow. It saddens me to see her leaving. Just hope for the best that she will find what she wants for her life. Perhaps I can meet her in future. I still haven’t decide whether to turn up tomorrow or not… It is too depressing to see her leaving. I will be happy, if I just forget about her departure and occupy myself with other things. :)

Something to be happy about

Just finished the weekly meeting, feeling happy and relieved .. was told that I don’t have to take over all those admin tasks. I just have to take over some from my colleague as he is leaving. I believed that most of the programmers don’t like admin task and I am also one of them but sometimes we just don’t have choice to choose what we wanted to do.