Singapore

I have been thinking and thinking this for a long very time ago. There are times when I feel like just want to go there and leave Malaysia. Words are to say, but when come to action will not be that easy anymore.

I asked myself “Does earning a little bit more but I might live in a more depressed condition worth going to Singapore?”


Now I am in Penang, there are times when I feel very very down, I just have to pack my bag and head back to ipoh and forget about doubts and problems for weekends. At least for the few days, I don’t have to think about my job, future, goals.. just sit back and enjoy the moment spent with parents.

And if I move to Singapore, then going back will not be that easy. Then where should I go? Where? Lock myself in my room and cry my heart out?

I will not move to anywhere unless I have a very sure feeling that the new environment will promise happiness to my life.

However, I might move to Singapore when suddenly I want to gamble my happiness. As people say the more you risk take, the more you will get in return.

Frankly speaking, I don’t have the courage to gamble with whatever I have now. What I have now don’t really fulfill what I am chasing for and still a very far away from here. But if I put my foot into Singapore I might lose everything that I have now. Everything..

Called me coward, stupid or whatever… those little happiness might turn into ashes with just my one step….then I will lost everything….