No connection to the internet makes my life miserable. I just don’t know how to describe the feeling. I think I need a change in life. I have a number of things that can get myself occupy but yet I can’t stop that sad feeling drowning me. Life is like no motivation to continue at all.
I have been with this company since I graduated. Patience is the one of the reason that I am still here. I waited and waited from nothing to something, the day has finally arrive that I am able to involve in a big project. It is like sunshine after days of raining.
Another opportunity is knocking at my door, I plan to reject it because taking this one means I have to give up the current project that I am handling. This is indeed a good opportunity, they offer me a permanent position but not doing the same thing. I can do .NET.. the language that I fond in some time ago with this new position.
I just feel a little wasted if I let go this permanent position where I can enjoy the company’s benefits. I am certainly clear that if I miss this one, I might to wait for a long time to get a 2nd one.
Going to make the decision soon or actually I already had it in my mind but just haven’t officially sent the confirmation out.
Went to KL last week, I don’t think I will like KL. In KL, to get from one place to another is very far, 30 minutes drive is consider near. To me, 15 minutes is near.
Met a friend there and he said he had just been hospitalized for 1 week due to lung infection. But none of his friends know about that except his housemate who sent him to the hospital. He is someone who can make friends very easy but still admitted that KL is a boring city. If I was him, I think I also don’t want anyone know about this. It gave me the feeling that it is just another lonely soul in the giant city.
I finally realized why my cousin suddenly moved back to Ipoh after years spent in KL. She was in Penang in April and asked me to join her in KL. The news came out of a sudden that she moved back to Ipoh in June. She claimed most of her friends were coming back to Ipoh. I truly understand her feelings now.
Until today, I still couldn’t find the answer that I have been looking for since the day I stepped out of my university.
If I ever move to KL … I will just be another lonely soul in the concrete jungle. However, no one will know what the future will hold. There is still possibility that I will be there even though I don’t like KL. I really couldn’t imagine myself in the move again. I just freak to hear “moving” again.. I have so many things here.. but I can never tell the future.
I think the most important in life is work extremely hard to get what I want. Work hard and play hard. Have to be stronger and fight for what I want! Lack of inspiration in life..
